The Soul’s Choice – Jasmuheen
As I fly backwards through the air time stops and as usual it is not until a week or so later that I gain the full understanding of exactly what was occurring.
How will I land?
How much damage will be done?
Neither thoughts form at the time, only later as I relive it all again trying to check what had actually occurred. All I have in that moment is just the awareness of flying backwards in slow motion through the air…
I land but am not there …
I am not sure how long I am unconsciousness for as I groggily come to in that state of neither here nor there. Then I hear myself groan then utter the words, “Oh shit!” as my right hand instinctively goes to the back of my head where my blood is spurting freely!
As I roll to my side feeling bruised and battered, I know I have to staunch the massive blood loss and so begin to push down as firmly as I can but my shoulder is bruised, I am in shock and find that I am not that strong. Slowly, I eventually manage to rise, get back into the house and find a roll of paper towels that are quickly filled with my warm and sticky blood. Yes, I am in shock and that was close yet I am thankful that the rest of my body was cushioned by the bed of plants that I landed on!
If the rock hadn’t been there, I would have been shaken yet unscathed.
If I hadn’t yanked the weeds out with quite so much strength … I wouldn’t have lost my balance … if … if… if …
Before I know it, the ambulance arrives and I spend the next 5 hours being tested top to toe with CT scans and Xray’s, heart and blood checks and so much more until I am finally released into the hands of my youngest daughter whose job it is to monitor the massive hematoma and concussion I am now enduring as I later begin to question the ‘whys and wherefores’ of it all.
I let everyone who needs to know, know, and cancel upcoming events only to find groups and individuals forming healing groups instinctually around the same time as each other, people who over the next few hours manage to shrink the massive hematoma by 40% much to my relief. So, a big yay and thanks to all who helped re this distant healing!
I feel overwhelmed with gratitude that the situation was not worse and for my healer friends and all those special ones I have come to know and love around the world. The power of united love and focus can move mountains we are told and now that same loving focus has just significantly shrunk a massive hematoma on my head!
Two days later once I am allowed to return to my own home no longer needing monitoring, I sit on my lounge and am overwhelmed with waves of bliss – an intense bliss that goes on and on recalibrating me in the most amazing way … as scenes of the medics, friends, neighbours and family flood through me with all sharing so much love and support. Perhaps, I think as the bliss continues, that it is just this, a profound feel of the joy that comes when we are feeling so deeply loved and supported?
A few days later I receive the news that as I lay unconscious in my garden, that same time one of my oldest, dearest friends of nearly 50 years was beginning her transition from this world and would be done by the time I was released from hospital care. She had left and gone to the field of bliss and was letting me know the state of beingness she had entered into. And with this realisation contact between us was again made.
Yes, it was her, yes, she had chosen to leave her form and yes, she was letting me know where she now was. Suzie had always loved the Christ and had recently told me that she had no more attachment to being in form or being back into the Christed state and yet of course I had selfishly hoped she would stay. People who we are heart, spirit and consciously connected with are always a joy to have in our lives!
Two days after my own fall, a sweet friend Anita in Germany went through the same experience falling down a flight of stairs, losing consciousness and waking with a hematoma and a severely bleeding cut just like mine …
As a mutual friend describes it all, I see the third eye vision of the fall but Anita morphs into me and I see that we were both in an almost suspended animation type state as our Souls make the choice to stay awhile longer rather than to leave this form.
It is the soul’s choice after all …
Neither of us believe in accidents happening feeling instead that everything happens for a reason and so I choose to feel myself recalibrated and reborn into a new chapter of my life.
As a choose a card from my Goddess Oracle deck, the Egyptian Goddess Bast makes her presence known along with the message that in this final chapter of my life on Earth it is finally about a time also of more play, pleasure, joy and more play for I have spent my life being the peace-keeper that I was born to be … but peace-keepers and peace holders can also enjoy the pleasure of play.
With a wounded head that is healing fast and a wounded heart that time itself will heal I know again even more deeply that to live is to love and to love can mean that yes, we can lose those we love yet in the loving so much else can be gained.
To live is to gain wisdom about what being alive entails … sometimes life on Earth brings sore heads and even sorer hearts yet there is such a richer to it all …
So perhaps it is time for those of you already feeling this to spend not just quality time but also time involved in sharing that which really uplifts our hearts …. and maybe just maybe to just relax and play a little bit more.
We are formlessness in a form that can so easily expire after all …
Only a final note two new kittens will soon be joining me in my home courtesy of both the Goddess Bast (Bastet*) and also our Lyrian Star friends from which our precious cats descend. Who better than a kitten to teach us how to play while also keeping that door to unconditional love as open as it can be!
* Bastet was the goddess of protection, pleasure, and the bringer of good health. She had the head of a cat and a slender female body. Bastet was the daughter of Ra, sister of Sekhmet, the wife of Ptah, and the mother of Mihos.
